28 February 2007

boys and girls

so i was just a little child,
you had grown so old.
i was just a baby -
and truth was all i told.

bikes with streamers, plaited hair,
hidden things and fun.
now my memories tie me down,
there’s nowhere left to run.

do you remember my backyard,
the black dog, her shaggy coat.
we built castle’s in the clouds,
and on those dreams we’d float.

a pair then came along,
we laughed in blissful glee.
i learned a precious lesson...
nothing is for free.

she was the first of many friends,
met along the road.
i told to her unhappy secrets,
she helped me bear the load.

a bottle came, its liquid poured,
before i knew your name.
but you loved me, beyond all doubt,
i'm sorry, i couldn't love you all the same.

i saw a golden sun set,
in the reflection of his eyes
he broke a little piece of me,
when he whispered gentle lies.

the next boy’s life was very fast,
a jagged mess of pain.
i was just sport to him,
the razor found the vein.

never did i care,
for their artificial ways.
i fed upon the idiocy,
and laughter filled my days.

i met him at a party,
he smiled and took my hand.
he told me i was beautiful,
then i could barely stand.

who did i grow into
what have i become
why did you leave me
weren't you the one?